but i have always wondered where thay trained these nuns and priests. and was it a method. because we all have the same kind of memories. it cant be an accident that the crazy ones stayed in ireland. and others were fit to be sent to Africa.
Pauline even though you were only 4 years old and savagely battered and tortured by the Nuns you still had more Intelligence and Humanity in your little finger that the whole Catholic World. I was forced to watch them Torture you after they ripped your cloths off I saw the TWO EVIL SADISTIC NUNS BOTH ATTACK YOU WITH FROTH COMING OUT OF THEIR MOUTH'S BOTH LASHING YOU with sticks All because I told the Doctor in Harcourt St Clinic what they were doing to us ,they took it out on you, I will never forget that awful day they the Nun's picked me up from Harcourt St back to Goldenbridge the Nun turned to me and said marching me to the Rec she said THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT they dragged you into the middle of the rec by the ear shouting and screaming and beating you both Nuns using large Sticks on your little skinny body there was nothing I could do about it if I cried and they saw me They would have killed you (and me)so I knew I musen't cry. they Damaged your ears to such an extent you have no ballance and keep falling down apart from all the scars you have not only on your body but in your mind. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU how you survived is a miracle . and they did not manage as much as they tried to give you brain damage . my heart hurts I see imiges like photos what they used to do to you. YOU ARE WONDERFUL AND VERY SPECIAL .
This feeling of emptyness is commen to all who dont know who thay are. adoption cant change that. In fact it can make things worse. not knowing means imagining all sorts of things. When the perents are differcult we can judge them but without knowing them at all its impossable. In order to grow up judging perents is a stage we go through.. that is why the state as perents is such a desaster. there isint any empathy in state run institutions.